why am i still up??

I am in a huge field tournament. The buy in?? Good question. 50 cents. Yup, Half a dollar or approximately 25p! Lol high stakes. I shall try to explain...

I guess i am still up because I just love the night time at the moment and am obsessed with poker. I am also just starting Season 2 of Alias. Its actually quite a formulaic show but i love it, plus Jennifer Garner is so hot it's crazy. I watched about half of Daredevil or Elektra or whatever and was like "meh", and now, i love her.

After losing that money yesterday ( like a moron) i logged into my bank and assessed the state of my funds. Bad. I decided that after recent cash outs i would allow myself $50 back to get me in the game. Not the BIG game obviously, that's not enough money, tut! In the end i just bought in enough for 3 - 4.40's after Rizen said that is what he would use to build a roll if he went broke. Also because i know i can do OK in these games.

Game 1 - to say i had 3 attempts to make money i fucked this up good and proper. I played wayhey too loose. Really pissed someone off when i dropped to 1k in chips and called the rest all in on a 3 - 1 shot with J4 suited. I flopped the J and the 4 flush and hit on the river to beat his kings. I then reraised all in with 33 and ws called by JJ. I'm an idiot

Game 2 - Finished 18th just in the money. I called raise in the bb from a mid position raiser. I had 33. The flop was 757 which i shoved. He called with kings. If i win that i am a contender as it was i was a marginal stack and now have 2 buyins again.

Game 3 - i lost a pot with KK very early i had reraised strong pre flop and got called the flop came ATx and i was chk raised. I folded. As you know, when you only have 1500 chips it is not that forgiving of an early mistake/outdraw. I shoved JK suited and got called by a player for all his chips. He had A4 off suit. He won.

Game 4 - 4th. Decent. Made my 3rd laydown of kk on the flop in 3 tournaments. Pretty infuriating. You see kings 4 handed and just go "kerching" today i just kept having to fold them on A high flops. After that i went 4th place and basicall decided it was all in or out time. I started shoving decent hands and shoved an ace from the button and was called by a bigger one. I hit my kicker and paired on the flop and the turn gave him his queen. I have noticed this a lot on PokerStars, i say its the home of the suckout resuckout. They apparently would rather go with the catchphrase "where the stars play poker". Agree to disagree.

I was then reading Tillerman's blog and he referenced the Jesus challenge. I looked at the tracking of Chris Ferguson's money and was inspired to start my own challenge. Hence the low limit tourney. I headed off to the micro limit cash games and lasted about 3 buyins before calling it a day. Reraised pre flop with KK - called - flop 984 - called - turn 5 - i shove all in - called by T8 - river 8 - nice. It went on. I was just going "lol nh" for about 30 minutes before i had to go. And i was just doing really well in this tourney until i started writing this and now i busted there too. Open ended straight draw me into top pair Q with a ten kicker. I thought he might fold. HAAAAAAA!!! Thought he might fold. What was i thinking!!!

To be honest, i believe you would have to have the patience of a saint (or Jesus) to complete this challenge and I'm already at $30 (what i am allowing myself to start with), he said the hardest part was getting to $6. Clearly I'm fucked.